Mechanical alignment not recommended...

I'm not feeling like myself.

Funny statement really.... I touched me. I feel just like I always do.

So I looked in the mirror. I look tired. How can I say that this is not myself? Am I never tired? Not often tired? Not usually "this" tired? Not this tired this many days in a row?

I also look sad. My eyelids are heavy. My skin hangs off my face. I am shiny, but do not glow.

Am I not supposed to be sad?

So that did get me thinking about what defines me. Certain physical characteristics: Height, hair color, gender and sex, and the there are certain qualities that carry judgement: strong nails, large hands, small feet, long legs.

Aren't we, however, mostly defined by our actions and accomplishments? I recruit for X. Therefore, I am a recruiter. I run, therefore I am a runner. I ride, therefore I am a Mountain Biker.

At another level, I am also defined by what I believe. I am an agnostic, maybe even a deist, but definitely not a evangelical Christian. I am a democrat and a Democrat. I am a post-feminist humanist. I am a sentimentalist. I am a --- the word for person who believes in evolution is so strange as to not seem right....

Today I am a sympathiser. I sympathise with Chinese earthquake survivors and those rotting alive in Myanmar.

Well, anyway, I am just not feeling like myself lately. Maybe tomorrow will be different? Maybe my soul will decided to align with my physical self again? I am at a loss as to where to begin this realignment process.

Wonder if the local PEP Boys has a computer program for such things?