late-afternoon, pain-inspired musings.

I am basically disgusted with you all... you you...you... well, Ok, maybe not you. Maybe you aren't the Americans who have given McCain a boost in the polls because you like that stupid woman. She just keeps lying and sounding snide. Didn't we learn that if you have to put other people down to make yourself feel better, you're a pretty poor person overall?
She's so stomach-turning.
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And why has the young man who impregnated her daughter - named for a fishing hole? - not been charged with statutory rape?
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I want Cindy McCain's earrings. I want to take them out of her ears and sell all 6 carats. The $280K will sit nicely in my retirement fund and I will be able to retire at 52. Oh, and the $3000 dress. Not sure if there's another woman out there who'd buy that color, but if I could sell it, I'd have half of what I need to put new windows (frames) into my 93 year old house.
Just this thought, tho. If your wife can introduce you wearing a $300,000 outfit... and owns seven houses, you have no clue what most of us face on a daily basis and you are by definition out of touch.
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my grief has ebbed... now I find myself with surreal thoughts about Red and have to consciously remember that he has gone. How did he get so sick and never get diagnosed? How is that even possible?
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I have another friend whose wife is very ill. And I really, really hate my thinking on this subject, but having recently spoken with her for just a few minutes... she's her own worst enemy and she is a nearly impossible human being. She is so judgmental and so very negative. Righteous... self-righteous. And here's my secret thought: I think she brought her problems on herself. I think she's a hypochondriac. My poor friend.
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My parents turn the keys to their home of 17 years over to the new owners tonight.
They've packed the trucks and things are on their way. My mother has lived in Portland for 50 years. My father for 48 years. This desire to live in California is absolutely idiotic. And it makes me so very sad. Now they are going to be farther away from the family at a time when everyone is aging quickly... Or maybe it's just that I don't want to deal with the change. And I don't want to not have a home in Portland. And I don't know why, but I am about to sob....
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New topic, then... right?
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I have to go home now. I have to finish defensive driving.... I think killing myself slowly with a butter knife would be more entertaining... but I digress.
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I bought some soy bread. I ate a couple slices for lunch. And I am not well. Either the label is incorrect, or Soy is on the list of things I must avoid. I shall test it over the next few weeks. The loaf cost like $12 anyway. So I wouldn't be able to buy much from the bakery where I got it anyway.
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And so, back to The Ladders. Gotta' work - ya know.