Facebook makes me lazy.
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At various times since I've been writing out here on the Internets (rather than via some old-fashioned medium like the newspaper, or my journal, even), I have indulged in an exercise in gratitude.
Today, I seem to have lost my sense of humor, my drive to take care of the little things in life and my focus.
I, quite honestly, feel like I'm failing, not least at being happy. What on earth do I have to be unhappy about? My car runs, my internet is working, my roof is water tight, the grass is green, the medicine seems to be curbing Bailey's incontinence and I am going to see some really cool friends this weekend.
Well, I'll tell you (with the caveat that I know this is whining).
I cannot find a dress for the dinner this weekend. I most likely need to go to stores that I don't usually visit. But my lesser, bitchy self thinks this shouldn't be so hard. Why can't I just go to Marshalls and find what I want? Huh?
I cannot exercise without hurting myself and I don't feel good without exercising. This is a tough pickle, and honestly, the one place I really am stuck. Setting my whining aside, I don't know what to do. I want to run, but it hurts. I want to climb, but it hurts. I want to do yoga, but it hurts. The whiny side just wants to cry "it's not fair."
The garbage did not get taken to the curb today.
The house did not get steamed... I ran out of time, energy and give a shit.
I have not eaten that much better since my crisis of cheese fries on Cinco De Mayo.
I seem to buy groceries and then think I have nothing to eat. The fridge is filthy and everything in the kitchen needs to be tossed or reorganized.
The left headlight needs to be replaced. The tile floor still needs to be retiled. The grass is growing too fast, but the zucchini is withering.
My tomatoes will likely not produce this year and the garden seems to need all new soil. Again.
And, I spend almost all my waking moments thinking of work and this is because we're busy. What I can't seem to get through my head, is that just three years ago, I was about to lose my business and two years ago at this time I was unemployed.
So, do I have it out of my system now that I've written it down? Not sure.
Do I realize I have a lot to be grateful for? Well... this is supposed to be an exercise in gratitude, so... Let me count the ways.

• There is a person for mayor this year who I think is worth giving my vote to.
• I have enough dog food to last two months.
• Dana gave me two boards which will make great shelves in my spare closet and allow me to organize it well.
• Shedding season does come to an end.
• I have friends who are good at tiling.
• The car runs without the left blinker, so I can limp it along for now.
• My mother recently repainted all her garden gnomes.
• rain will solve the problem with the zucchinis.
• I can buy tomatoes.
• The power is on an the AC is running and there is no more water dripping out of the pan.
• I have a closet full of clothes that I can be proud of and am not actually that vain about wearing the same thing more than once.
• All of the people working for me make me proud.
• Dana is going to make me eggplant tomorrow.

And there is a lot more. BTW, I now have two outfits put together for my trip.
Phew.
It seems to have worked...
Thanks.